the day before lantern festival

missed the rehearsal just now... feeling a bit depressed right now... in bus 153...

work is taking way too much time from my life... too many things are happening at the same time...
i feel i am thinking too much in how to make the company better and more competitive... but the reality is still the same as the old company, human is selfish... when can we realize cooperation is power

the only thing make me moving is band... without band, i think i will lost my direction of life again... in ks, i like it there because the people there are friendly... i still can cope with the pieces hence not so much stressed... in ws, i think i look tired and unfriendly all the time when i was there because of work... not socialising with people... haha... but i think i am coping with my part quite ok except for the solo for fantasy variations... need to practice with metronome...

but sometimes i feel that band is usually a bit too blasty... unless the conductor can really control the musicians well enough... i want to form a ensemble like clarinet quartet or wind quintet to get some tranquil and more harmonized sound to balance up... but this kind of thing really need to wait the right timing, a good quite practice venue and the people who are interested in smaller ensemble setting...

chinese new year is going to end tomorrow.... sincerely wish everyone can seize want they want in the year of ox...